31/12/2011

Well .. here we are , last day of 2011 ...alone in my room .... crackers bursting every few minutes lighting up the skyline .... music playing from some local club far away .. still farther away , siren of police car or maybe an ambulance .. and still farther away .. silence ...but yes coming back to my room .. staring at my laptop ... facebook open ... updates streaming in every minute ... for no particular reason at all but for so many reasons in general feeling happy ...... very very happy ..... and lucky .. thought of posting this on facebook too , as my status message but then thought otherwise ...

FOR THOSE WHO ARE READING THIS ... WISH YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR.... HAVE A GREAT TIME AHEAD .. !!

Happy that I am finally on the path to gaining what I had always thought to be a dream ... six pack abs .. :) ... regular workouts , swimming and long distance runs ... my feet is blistered .. but I love it ..

Completed a crazy gutsy deed that was on my to do list .... I asked the height of lady colossus today .... thought I did not pull it off as perfectly as I hoped but still it was an amusing experience .. :)

Well here is another post after a long time . So . I completed my 3 years of work-life yesterday .... its been an interesting journey .. bittersweet and am fortunate that sweetness has a bigger share in it .

Karthik Raj came to India from US and since he will not be able to come to my marriage , he came to visit me now .... that meant a lot .

An auto driver helped me a lot today by giving me 10 ten rupee notes for a 100 .. which I desperately needed to be able to travel back home .. and no one was giving even when I am sure they had it ..

 I am doing good as well .. in the best shape and getting better still ..looking forward to life with big plans in my mind :)

Hi All ....
first off ... if you are wondering about the huge delay in making this post .. I got no explanation for that .... just did not feel like it .

I made my last post ... declaring war against my growing body fat...... 75 days hence , I am winning (went down 2 waist sizes as a proof) , a few stubborn pockets of chest and belly fat are still giving a fight but I am weeding them out ..

In case you are curious about the kind of routine I have been following , here goes :

Morning : (8:00 am -10:30 am)
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a glass of milk ,
40 mins of swimming ,
2 eggs and fruits (e.g. 2 bananas , half an apple.)

Lunch (12:00 pm -12:30 pm):
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Salad (boiled potatoes , beans , radishes , carrots , raw tomatoes , meat(occasionally) )

Evening (4:30 pm - 5:00 pm)
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Fruits (e.g. half an apple , 1 pear)

Evening (7:00 pm - 8:30 pm)
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6 Kms brisk/vigorous walking , followed by
(5 Kms jogging on Mon ,Wed , Fri)
(30 mins workout on Tue,Thurs,Sat,Sun)
and then a glass of milk .

Dinner (9:00 pm - 9:30pm)
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Rice , veggies , fish/eggs/meat (varies)


Have totally given up oil ... (no not even an occasional bite at a fry ) .
Chocolates .. one of my most favorite indulgences ... (at the time I made my last post , I have been eating as many as 10-15 chocolate bars a week) , this though I have not been able to give up totally (never will ) but I can say that in the 76 days since my last post (that is almost 11 weeks) I have eaten a total of 12-13 chocolate bars at max so that is almost ten times lesser .. m proud .. :) ... I have improved much .. very much .. both in physical and mental health ... both of which I now firmly believe are interlinked and interdependent .

A word of advice to those who are trying to lose weight ... a healthy diet is a must .. you should not starve yourself ... when you hear control your eating interpret it as do not overeat ... fill yourselves up but do not overflow ... avoid oily food totally .. and do not listen to every third person who makes a passing casual remark about your efforts in changing your diet or your workout , lifestyle etc (who might be just an acquaintance who in normal circumstances would not be bothered with your life at all but just cannot stop making wisecracks when they see you doing something new . It can be pretty dangerous to listen to these kind of remarks ... might get you demotivated) .. believe me I have had my brush with such lot ... just ignore them .. that is the best way to avoid them .. greet their comments with a smile or a friendly 'lets see' kind of reply in case of persistent ones and that should pull you through .

Remember ... if you take care of your body now when you are strong and able .. later on in your life , it will be your time to sit back and enjoy the benefits .

Over all things have been going good .

I hope you are all doing good ... see you all soon again .. take care .. bye ..!!

THE FIGHT STARTS ..!!

Hi all , the last few days went in a flash and also very hectic ... news for you .. I am getting married !??!!!:)!!:(!!

so , counting from tomorrow , that leaves me with : 24(Sep)+31(Oct)+30(Nov)+31(Dec)+31(Jan)+10(Feb , keeping 5 days buffer) = 157 days ... and within this I plan to get into the best shape possible ..as an added step , I am going to keep track of my progress in this blog , day to day , starting today ....

I have a lot of fatty deposits here and there ... and I plan to reduce that within the above mentioned period of time through a disciplined lifestyle containing daily swimming , jogging and working out while following a 9am-7:30pm office life and late night work .... I am also a big foodie .. so it will be hard for me to keep off my favorite foods but hey .. I am already without chocolates for the last 2 months .. 

I am going to strike off fat(as much as possible in any form) from my menu .. and increase the protein intake .. One thing I have going for me is my optimism .. so here I go....!!!!

Today was a holiday for eid ... well a holiday at the middle of the week is really enjoyable ... just went away in a flash :) :)

Well .. tomorrow is a holiday for Eid .... Eid Mubarak to all !!

Can a day get more boring :( :(

Sigh .... ends another weekend ..!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh....another Friday night .. :) :) ... I got reason to be happy today .. which is also today's notable event ... is that .. a pant which used to fit me (my waist) perfectly sometime back(around 10-11 months) and was not fitting at all since I got fat ... was fitting me again yesterday .. albeit a little tightly .. but something is better than nothing ....at least in this case it is .. and so I am happy ..!!

Week 5 of my battle against getting fatter .. with a goal to becoming lean to the level of being able to show the abs .. I have not touched a chocolate (something which I find irresistible) or candy bar  in the last 2 months .. reduced my food intake (which also means cutting off some of my favorite food preparations .... I do have a very adventurous palate   and the cuisine of the world is indeed filled with a lot of ...TO DIE FOR ... kind of dishes , so that makes it harder .... but I am proud to say I am doing it pretty well) .. I have learned swimming and doing 10 laps every morning on a 15 m pool .. walking 6 Km daily and working out 4 days a week .. and I am also seeing results but the going gets tough when people keep on telling you how fat you have become ... luckily for me that is not stopping me now ..as I seem to found and inexhaustible source of inspiration and motivation somewhere within me .. so I am ready to welcome the healthy change coming over me slowly .. I am feeling good . 

Usual day :(

Absolutely no sleep last night ....add to it swimming in the morning .. 6 Km s of walk in the evening and then a gym workout .... dog tired as a result ..!!

I am happy .... I have finally found direction in my life ..!!

Well well well .... here I am at the end of another weekend .... do not know why but I seem to have got that spark of motivation which I was in much need of ... I have never been so motivated in a long time, . Joined the Gym today after 3 long years  .... and after a long time .. those clouds of feeling of desperation and preoccupation with death are parting and the sun is shining through ... oh yes I still think about how we all will end in death but then .. I have stopped asking ..' WHAT IS THE USE OF LIVING THEN ? ' .... that does not mean I have found the meaning of life ... on the contrary .. but instead of feeling miserable about it I have decided to look for it harder and that is reason enough to live ..
Life is too short ..... TIME TO BE LARGER THAN LIFE .. !!
OH YEAH ..!!

Took a deliberate break from blogging for some time .... so , after a long weekend and then a very boring and uneventful week , I am back at the start of another weekend .... It is still raining on intervals here ..
well ... nothing more to write ..
have a nice time friends ..

Ahhh ... the start of a 3 day long weekend ... yesterday made no entry on purpose .. was feeling a bit sick with pain in the stomach ... now all set with to watch the movie French Connection .... along with sausages , flatbread and a lime drink for accompaniment ..!!

Again the rains are back today
with a steady pitter-patter
On the roofs and window panes
raindrops fall and scatter.

Usual boring day ... a brief break from the continuous downpour though the sky was still cloudy all along , with the occasional drizzle of course .... now news has come from the weather department that we are all set for another set of heavy showers .. and true .. I can hear the rolling thunder and already the first torrent has hit the ground ..
Coming Monday is Indian Independence Day  ... so it is a holiday .. that also means a long weekend .. looking forward to it .

Another thing ... tomorrow , I complete 200 scraps ..

Good Night Folks ..

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Raining heavily without a stop since the last two days .... the local lake has almost flooded .... very nice weather if you are in the safety , warmth and security of home .. leads me on to wonder whether feeling happy and enjoying this kind of weather is morally correct , knowing the suffering of so many homeless and poor .. does this come under the boundary of morality ? and if it does , then what is the answer , or does morality not hold an answer for this ..  

Sunday 1:14 AM
There is drizzle ... there is rain .. there is heavy and then there is raining cats and dogs ... that is what it is now ... outside it is raining cats and dogs ..!! and here I am having honeyed milk and watching a movie .. :)

Hmm . Friday went nice .. two days of break now .. except for one little glitch .. have to go to office for retail day .. at least for sometime .. getting addicted to swimming .. my new tone down routine is also working fine ... and I dare say that I carry it pretty well .

Had a very early dinner today .. planning to work on my super-zoom project , late tonight .

I am nearing 200 Scraps .. :) :)

Absolutely nothing new to report except that I walked 15 kilometers today .... dog tired as a result .

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Ohhhh ... so humid that it is sucking out all the energy from the body ... very usual day other wise ..  . Mom's teeth pain seems to be at bay for the moment .

Day went ok ok .... it is very very humid here today , almost un tolerable , sweating like melting ice . Mom is having severe teeth pain .. got her some medicines ..  

went clothes shopping with mom and sis.

..31st July .. 1:47 AM .... I am and will be having a very very bad time . Got a lot of thinking to do and if required .. a lot of hard decisions to take. .. we will see grasshopper .. we will see.

Passed exam with flying colors .... one load off my head ... mom and dad gone to viisit relatives in Jamshedpur since yesterday .

:( :( :( :(  :( .... usual day .... got an exam tomorrow .. but I know nothing ..!! :( :(

Ooooooooooooooooohhhh back to a rut .. will be spicing up soon . 

Seen the most beautiful sunset today in days .. 

The weekend passed away as quickly as the week bygone and once more I am going through a Sunday night . Today is a special day .... marking the second anniversary of the blossom of orange red flowers in my garden .
Have taken up reading the entire Sherlock literature once again ... and as always they never fail to amuse me . Things have been going pretty normal and I hope they stay that way for though now and then a storm is welcome , staying in the company of the wild winds is one passion that I abstain from for the better ..!!

A Day full of activity .... watched Harry Potter and the deathly hallows part 2 today .... liked it ..

Surrounded by insane and mean minded and discontent people .... I hate it .

Sunshine ...... its SUNSHINE again ...!!!!

Not at all in the mood to write anything ..!!

Do not start looking for relevance of drawing to the post . I am just warming up.. soon I am planning to convert this blog to a comic strip .... hi ha ha ha ha .. !!!!

Same old boring day at office .... :(

Big gap in blogging for a few days ... will be elaborating in the coming weekend . Swimming is going good with improvement .. and my regimen to tone up has yet to show any results but I am hopeful ..
Usual day at office today .... not much work though ..
Bought  a scanner during the time when I was away from blogging ... this painting is hand drawn and scanned and I am happy with the results .
That's all for today
Good night folks .

I AM BA-ACK .... !!!!

Today is and will always remain one of the best days of my life .... and also one of the very few most surprising . Shefali came over from Mumbai and paid a surprise visit . I was so surprised that all expressions on my face went blank and for sometime I was not able to believe my eyes or think or speak clearly . I am happy .... I am so so happy .

Had less work today .. nothing new worth mentioning .

Well ... yesterday had office. ... went to dumdum from there .. had biriyani and chicken for dinner and then watched movie IJ Kingdom of Crystal Skull and chatted ... went to sleep at 5:30 in the morn .. today morning
returned from there around 3:00 pm . Rest of the day was spent making cover art for Srishti . 

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A day full of activity but now worth mentioning ..!! I am getting obsessed with the ways of speaking and dialogues of Pirates of Carribean series .

Again .. another day in which nothing happened .... only good thing is the Srishti revival seems to be going good .

A most ordinary day passed ... absolutely nothing to say . Planning to start up Srishti again .

Hmmm... no office today , that was good ... had relaxing time at home ... weather is still the same cloudy rainy ... still no sun .. not that I mind it .... but not always .
Mentally feeling relaxed too in some respects .... and in some , storms are brewing up .... !!
Oh yes and I have become a great admirer of Captain Hector Barbossa of Pirates of the Carribean . 

I was not there before I was born .... I will not be there after I die .... hmm interesting .. that makes a full circle .. and zero is also a full circle ... wonder what is the meaning of life ??
Apart from that .... the wheels have started spinning now for project S . 

Could not make any entries for the last 2 days  , storm and rains had taken down the internet lines . Had some chance to get wet ..... loving the weather and hating going to office when the weather is such ... Had lovely breakfast today .... 

Monsoon has arrived full fledged , not for once has the sun peeped out from behind the dense curtain of grey rain clouds that fill the sky from horizon to horizon .
Very big event coming in my life too . Spoke to Joyda about project S . 

12 hours at office today .... doing totally pointless work .... what is this world coming to ...

Making progress in my swimming lessons .... was able to float and move .... however....now I know what it feels like to have a lot of chlorinated water in my stomach .... :) .....It rained today .... the monsoon is rolling in  ..... there is storm at sea ..... steady me hearties.....we will ride this one too .... !!

After 12 long years , I am again taking an attempt to learn swimming and this time I am confident that I will learn quickly and easily . Went for swimming today  and found out that I could get hold of it pretty easily .
Good .... finally something new ... 

Having not a fair time .....and getting very very contemplative .

Another Friday night .... after an usual Friday day .. :) , having  not much work in the office lately so getting time to do some R & D on other topics as well . Going to start something very new ... took a very big step today ... now , looking forward to face my fears and overcome them .

The term inner peace will normally strike a familiar chord in spiritual people ... now , with the second release of the movie Kung-Fu  Panda , a lot of people with lots of different mindsets are at least aware of the term if not know it as in realizing it .
I have been talking about a strange hurry that I seem to be in and add to it a growing unrest and anger and irritation directed towards certain people apparently for no reason , flaring up from time to time .... it is inner peace that I terribly lack and desperately need  .
Strange thing is , I seem to know the path towards that as if it is a full orchard which I can see from outside and dream of eating the fruits but cannot go inside because of thorn hedges surrounding it ..

Of late , I have been noticing that I am always in a hurry to finish off whatever I am doing at any point of time , as if I am going to be late for my next activity .... and as if I am always falling short of time ... as a result I am not able to organize my thoughts and activities into a well coordinated flow and this has stopped much of my creative thinking while my life has fallen into the only too well formed rut of home<->office . There is also a growing laziness of mind that I am developing as a result and I am falling prey to the vices that comes along with it .. true in keeping to the well known saying : "Idle brain , Devil's workshop" .
On the positive side , it is good that I have recognized this .. for now I can work towards stopping this . Actually this is not something totally new ... I have been through similar situations before where all my coordinated flow of  activity has been suddenly ruptured by a drastic change e.g. change of daily routine or surroundings etc. and it has always been some time before I could fall back to my original flow and create order amidst the growing chaos ... just like a footpath through a grassy field , growing clearer with time and the passing .
Said a lot after a long time ... if you have read this far .. thank you ..  

Going through the hottest day of this summer so far .... almost intolerable .. health has improved but the weather is making me feel worse than the ailment .

In failing health .... having a bad time .

Watched Kung-fu Panda 2 in 3 D and also Noukadubi .. at Inox Forum with cousins ..Loved both .

Maelstrom ..!!

Is it me or does a combination of vanilla ice cream , mixed fruit jam , honey and frosted blueberries make for a great nighttime snack ..?!?!

UPCOMING STORM IN THE HORIZON ..!!

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Very very strong storm today noon ... well , that was the only notable thing ... I am again getting too preoccupied with the thought of death and meaning of life ... good thing is , this time I have been able to identify the source that invoked this thought .... maybe , I can work towards a detour.

Nothing to say ...
a  - will suffice for today .

Hmmm.....
what to say , what to say , what to say ...
the infinite and endless dilemma ...
and what a day oh what a day ...
the sultry heat of summa .

:) 

Ahhhh ... ends another Saturday .... had office today  9am - 6pm ... went to watch the movie Pirates of Carribian - On Stranger Tides  with my sis ... had dinner at pizza hut before the movie ... finally home for some well deserved rest .

Friday night ... but not exactly happy .. because I got to go to office tomorrow ....

Feeling so much drowsy and sleepy as if I am under the influence of some heavy sedative or intoxicant .....

22nd May 2011 :
Priyam's marriage today .. took lots of pictures of the entire ceremony from morning till noon . Went to see Kasi Vishwanath Temple and Ganga Aarti at Dashashwamedh ghat .

23rd May 2011 :
Leaving Benaras tonight ... Went to Sarnath , the birth place of Buddhism , saw the stupas , the ashokan pillar , the lions capital etc .

24th May 2011 :
Arrived in Kolkata .. train was late yesterday night nut I got a comfortable seat ... did not have much sleep last night and kept on having nightmares that I could not get down at my station .
Got news of some urgency at office , so rushed home , and rushed to office from there . Had a busy day after that and had to stay extended hours .

25th May 2011 :
Life is back on its normal rut .. weather was very hot in the morning but the evening was awash with heavy rain .... there is storm on the horizon .... lots to say .. waiting for the weekend to let it out ..

  

went to dasashwamedh ghat and kaal bhairav temple in VNS.

Will be on train tonight .. so this early entry .... I am looking forward to the trip . Returned early from office . Got to do all the packing now .
See you all .

Hmm .... the weather has improved a lot .... from searing , stifling hot to soothing cold .. very heavy storm and rains last night ...so .
Will be off to Varanasi tomorrow , excited about that .

Very busy day at office today , but I enjoyed because I was busy doing research ..
Back home .. do not know why but I am feeling sick after dinner ..
Hopefully this will go after I have had some rest . 

12 hours at office today ... sheeeesh ...
Weather is very bad here .... hot and humid ... drains all the energy out of the body ...
The dinner spread was very good today , having rice , dal , fried fish eggs and prawns ... enjoyed  ... but had the weather been better and had I returned early , I would have had a more ravenous appetite and then dinner would have been truly majestic .

Temperatures are soaring here and strangely there is almost no wind except for an occasional whiff .

This day ends on a sad note ... got news that one of my college mates expired today ...accidentally drowning . 

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Ohhhh .... these busy days are getting rather tiresome ..... the weather has cooled down ... not much to say today .... got an idea , I will start working on it once my brother comes home from college .

Ohhhh .... again a very busy day at office ...

Tremendous storm and rains have washed away all the heat ...

The weather is cool now .....

Today is Tataiya and Pamaiya's Marriage anniversary ... 

Ohh ... what a busy day at office today ... got only half an hour of free time in the entire 11 hours ..(that there , are two extended hours right there) ..
It is getting very hot here in Kolkata .. the temperature has risen by about 10degrees (Celcius) in the last three days .. now it is 41 .. the mets say it is about to rise more .. desperately hoping for storm and rains .

Ohh .... monday again .. and what a busy day today .. lots of work at office ..had to stay extended hours .. finally arrived home and relaxing after a shower and dinner . Chotokaka has come . Had a Kamal's  ice cream after dinner today , did not quite get the name of the flavor , but it was very nice .

Today was very enjoyable .... and hectic .... borrow mama , borrow mami , tapen da , mitali di , sonali and sonai were invited .... had lots of fun .... feeling sad that today is Sunday ..... office from tomorrow .. :( 

Today was adventurous .... hard to say how today will end .

Very busy day at office today . Chatted with friends on the way back . Spoke for a long time at night with my girlfriend ... topics ranged from .. spirituality to music to fire and ice ... now ... all alone .... enjoying a Friday night .

Most boring day in a long time , lot of work at office , no storm and rains ..... waiting for them to come .

Usual day turned better by the storm and rains .

Day was usual .. ... as I was getting ready for office in the morning , looking out my bedroom window I saw two woodpeckers on the coconut tree in our garden ... I rushed upstairs for my camera praying that they do not fly away by the time I come back ..... they did not and I was able to take some snaps which came out wonderfully .
Took mom to the doctor's on the way back from office , for check up for the pain she is having in her leg for some time . Then got the news that my elder cousin had to be hospitalized due to sickness from severe dehydration so went to visit him the hospital . Mom stayed back at Dum Dum .
I came back ..

Nothing to say

Just my usual Sunday ....Watched Kate and Leopold , liked the movie .  Had talks with old friends over the phone at dusk  , feeling good . Mom cooked a special chicken dish for dinner today .... not some fixed recipe , just some random thing that she thought up .... it tasted good .
Ohhhhhhhhhh....... Monday tomorrow .. :( :(

Went to attend the 50th marriage anniversary celebration of Nakdeb and Dida . Had a very nice time there with all family .

12 hours office duty today .... really feeling THANK GOD IT IS FRIDAY ... day was usual .. nothing much to mention , watched the movie MEN IN BLACK 2 on  TV after coming home .. played a little chess over the net .
Received the book sent to me by my friend Tate ... I love it , and I am thrilled .

Will try to drag the night as long as possible .

Most of the middle class and the upper middle class are weak at heart and too preoccupied with the task of keeping up their VANITY , thus ending up by turning simple things (e.g. 1+1 = 2) into complex problems (e.g. E=mc^2).

They are just too worried about  :

what other people will think  .... and

what will happen if they lose their job ,
or things like MONEY , how to amass more and more  , always egged on by a persistent sense of insecurity .

and a lot of other such meaningless things ..

Combined with the other bonds of family life , this changes their life in a way similar to a vegetable existence or at most a leashed animal .

Mind it I am not saying that this is true for all , I said MOST ...... because I am a hardcore believer of exceptions and I know that there are exceptions in this case too , but sometimes even the exceptions get converted into a normalized form by too much of external influence .

No wonder that so many revolutionaries in the fields of science , culture , adventure etc ... come from the extremities of the society ... i.e. either very rich or very poor  ..... as for the middle class .. well , they are .... once again I will say ..... mostly spectators . 

Today was a holiday due to election .... stayed at home .. went for a long walk in the evening .. 10 Kms , rest of the day till now went as usual and now ... time to go to bed .

Took a deliberate break from blogging for the last few days .. or shall I say that I am confused whether what I call 'deliberately taking a break' , 
                            is actually UNWILLINGNESS , A by-product of
                         Mumbai Blues and Lethargy


ANYWAYS  I am back to normal life again . The short trip to Mumbai to meet my sweetheart went lovely  , only that it was too short ... the longing increases with every visit .


Not been writing anything for quite sometime now .. though I got a lot of iDeAS trying to make their way onto the paper via the mind > pen > paper route ... 


No headache attacks for sometime now .... only very light ..once..few days back


Will probably be going to UK for work purposes ... or better to say .. HAVE to go .. because I  , personally , am unwilling .

The best day that I have had in a very long long time  ..... I just cannot get enough of it . 

9 hours 30 minutes

Fire and Ice .... oh yeah !!

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Very busy day at office today .. no headache attacks ..went to attend Pikon's marriage reception . Only one more day to go .... feeling the latent excitement rising .. long weekend coming up with Friday being a holiday (Good Friday) and then Saturday and Sunday . Enjoy folks .. and Happy Easter . 

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Been suffering  from headache on and off since last few days , got some headache pills today . Had a good dinner today of rice , dal , tomato mustard and onion curry , potato and couscous curry , and fish  , talked a long time with mom after that .. now I am off to sleep :)

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A three day long weekend coming to a close .. suffering from headache since evening ...eagerly waiting for next weekend .

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Big updates coming up ..!!

I am a hypocrite .... 

Just an usual Tuesday .... hardly noticeable among the crowd of other Tuesdays and weekdays in general .. .

Something strange is going on .... I am sure ... because , for the first time in a very very long time , I did not have the Monday morning blues today ... not to mention the fact the fact that for a brief interval of time yesterday .. I remember me of almost looking forward to go to office ..very fishy ..
I am on high alert ... :) :) !!!!

It is becoming hot here ... the summer is turning up the heat .. Yesterday I said about not feeling like staying up late and feeling tired ... strange it may sound , I think this sudden change of temperature and the climate is the reason for that .. if that is so , then I will be all right soon .. !!

Another Saturday night . Strangely , since the last two weekends , I am not feeling like staying up late .. I wonder why .. I have also not been feeling like drawing cartoons for quite some time ....I am also going through a partial writers block .. so many ideas in my head but the flow of writing dries out after few lines or paragraphs ..

There is a continual restless felling that I have running in the back of my mid always .. as if time is running out very fast and I am not doing what I am supposed to .. and I have a suspicion that it is this undercurrent of thought that is causing unrest in my mind .. there is also another feeling which comes whenever I plan to start something new on weekends .. that feeling makes me think WHATS THE USE .. I AM AGAIN GOING TO GET BACK TO MY REAL LIFE FROM MONDAY ... and this drowns my enthusiasm .. 

Seems rather grim ... no wonder .. Well , here is something positive ... at least I know what is causing the problem ... all I have to do now is fight against it and win.

That is what I am doing and I .... WILL .....WIN !!!!

Another fine friday night .. had the mukhebhat ceremony for my niece today ... and I also found El finally ... !!

This is the 100th post .... OH YEAH .... !!!!

Completed one hundred posts today .... feels great that I have been able to maintain this regularity .
I am eagerly waiting for 22nd when I will be able to meet my sweetheart again .

The vanity of a misguided lot can be infectious if someone without the infection is rubbing shoulders with them 60x60x24x7x4.5x12x Current age and going ..

Got to be careful !!

This is my 98th post .. nearing 100 ..today was busy .. got some new ideas but I am not able to put them down properly in paper ..on thing is sure , when I am done with this one .. this is going to be a masterpiece .. well at least for now I would like to think so .. got some ideas for cartoons , will be drawing them this weekend ...
When I have completed 100 posts , I plan to read through  all of them once again from the start .. see if there is any pattern emerging from it ....if not , at least I am sure that my old posts will make for very good reading .

Heavy storm and rain here today .. I got drenched .. on purpose . Weather is very nice ..
It has been quite sometime since I drew any cartoons .. and I have been getting comments that my blog is becoming boring .. well .. and optimistic thought would be .. it indicates that it was interesting before .. ha ha . Jokes apart , the point is , yes I know it is becoming boring .. but strange thing is .. most of the people will stop after saying boring .. some , a few will go ahead and ask Why are you not drawing .. and even fewer will proceed further and say Draw .. you should draw ... well , when self inspiration is running low .. then therein lies the inspiration .. I am yet to get such .. for my cartoons and I doubt if I will ever get it .. any way , doesn't matter , I will soon be back to drawing .. self motivated .. my head is already full of ideas .... FOLKS .. GET READY FOR A BURST OF COLORS !!!!

A storm has picked up here .. and of-course that makes me happy ... it is at least partially balancing the sadness of another weekend coming to a close .

India won the cricket world cup final against Sri Lanka today after 21 years ... feeling very happy....oh yeah ....!!!!

FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY ....!!!!

Coming up..

India won the cricket world cup semifinal playing against Pakistan ... now waiting for the final showdown .

I am making breakthroughs ... and I am also being very telepathically strong recently .... thinking how to put all these to good use . Meanwhile .. rock on .. !!

Something happened today at office that made me happily realize that I still have not lost the passion for inventions and breakthroughs one little bit .
Feeling happy !!!!

Sunday ending .... :( office starts from tomorrow once again .. not exactly something to be happy about .. :(

Another lovely Saturday slowly coming to a close  .... :(

Weekend is here at last .... went to attend a birthday party today ... now looking forward to another long lazy Friday night .. .

Eagerly waiting for the weekend .... it rained here today .... got a birthday party to attend tomorrow , so went to city center 2  to buy gift , bought an action game cd as gift . Wrote my first Hindi poem today and to my delight , it turned out to be good .
Going to bed now , tomorrow is Friday , weekend is in sight ... I am almost there !!

Nothing to write !!!!

Thinking of some other ways to spice up my blog ... other than making stupid boring routine entries . Working on illustrations for my writings .

Nothing to write .... I sometimes wonder and always find it incredibly amazing that how totally uneventful a day can be ..!!
Got a new aquarium ..well actually repaired an old broken one and it is like new now .. put our new parrot fish in that along with a tiger fish and discus .

Back from the trip .... the time passed as if in a flash ... it was just like a dream .... feeling like I was back to college again . Feeling very sad after coming back .. will take some time to recover ...

Ahhhhhhhhhh.... I have finally come to revisit the place where I spent my college life . This quiet little city is the second closest place to my heart after home . Now that I am here , I am not feeling like leaving ... and I know it will feel very very bad when I have to leave tomorrow . Time is passing so very fast ... well that is what happens when things go good .

Today was a mess .......

Ahhhh .... looking forward to enjoying a long leisurely weekend starting tomorrow... will be taking a trip to my college ... that will be a nice break from daily life ..

I am a genius .... :) yes yes yes yes yes !!!!!

Desperately seeking solitude ..

Oh the blues of a Monday after every weekend .... Sigh ..!! no more to say except that it was a usual day . One of our pet fish died today having been attacked by another ... we removed the assailant from the aquarium and released it to a nearby pond .... Ah yes .... one more nice thing .. I have been able to start working out again .. Oh Yeah ..!!

Today I slept all day long waking only to had a haircut , bathe and eat . Went out to attend a marriage ceremony invitation in the evening .

A nice and lazy Saturday .. too bad it is ending so fast .. went out with cousins to watch a movie "World Invasion - Los Angeles" ..or something like that .. not able to remember the name properly .. ate out and now ready for another long Saturday night .

The weekend is here ... oh yeah its Friday night . This week passed very fast ..

feeling sad for the disaster in Japan (devastating 8.9 magnitude earthquake with similar devastating consequences) ...

there was a violent dust storm here at around 3 pm while I was at office .. it became dark as night .... accompanied by torrential rains ... however , as suddenly as it had come , it went away and the sky was clear again . The weather here is very nice and cool ..

Went out for attending a marriage ceremony invitation.

Hoping to enjoy the weekend to the fullest .... specially this night :).

It is raining here and I , AM HAPPY ... !!!

Usual days usual nights ... no variations .. I am getting bored .... trying various forms of art have become my only escape .... eagerly waiting for the rains when all perspectives change .

OOOOOOOOOOOOHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!  .... feel as if I am aging .... both physically and mentally .... wonder what is causing this ... just you wait evil thing till I get hold of you and banish you from my system forever ... .

Usual day .. had a bad fight ... went out to cousins house for dinner ....

Another Saturday comes to a close .... feeling bad about that already .

Thanks giving party at PeerLess Inn

bestir ye bestir ye

Nothing much .... Nothing Much.

So many thoughts ... so many questions .... just look at my face and you will know . But who ???? who will answer ... huh huh ???? No storm but the damp is just as bad . By the way , I just noticed that I had missed making an entry on the 27th ... i wonder how I missed it .... well there is always a first time for everything .

AHH......MEMORIES....MEMORIES........

I am getting fat and I am lazy enough to be doing nothing about it except for feeling sorry and dream of the past .
There is upcoming storm .... I am mentally preparing myself to face it .

Still there . Went to watch the movie SAAT KHOON MAAF today . If you haven't noticed already , I have started using hand drawn cartoons ... now onwards I will be using mixed media , i.e. hand drawn and paint drawn cartoons for my blog . Watched the movie Paranormal Activity at night after dinner .
Will be leaving for home early tomorrow morning ....

At my brother's house to celebrate his 25th birthday . Came along with my sister ... we gifted him a Fast Track wrist watch . By the way , recovery is going pretty well .

If you eat a spoon of bitter medicine after you have had sweet , it tastes a whole lot more bitter . It was an usual day today , only more boring .... relatively speaking ... one thing is that I realized suddenly there is a lot of free time on my hands it seems .

To quote a famous poet :

Is it a vision or a waking dream ?
Fade is that music , do I wake or sleep ?

Brother's marriage ended in fine style .... was so busy these few days that I was not able to make blog entries properly ... so I had made dummy posts which I will fill up later . Had a very nice time together with my favorite cousins .... hoping to come out of the mishap soon .

Lot to write but running short on time right now so I am waiting for the weekend .. .

A mishap has happened ........... hoping to recover soon . Though this has got me grounded , still , I got a lot of work to do ....today there is another related ceremony .

It is up , it is up , it is up ....!!!! Tried an experimental four strip cartoon form  .... that is the only new thing today  , if I get good at doing this , soon I will convert this blog to a comic strip .... keeping hopes high .

Very busy .. today is my elder brother Rudra's marriage .

At my uncle's house .. will be staying here this weekend ... occasion : My brother Rudra's marriage .

An evening of music and fine dining ..... party at Sonnet hotel . Beautiful jazz by Michel and his troupe .

I wish I could open up my brain like a piece of machinery , like ... say ... a car engine , to release some heat from so much impotent anger and other similar impotent emotions .. .The day ended bad ... and since all is well that ends well and the ending is not fine ... so is not the day . Hope tomorrow is better .

Office day went just as usual ( I have decided to stop mentioning this from tomorrow , I will only mention office if something noteworthy happens .) . A nice thing happened on the way home . There is a little group of gentle men who gather around during dusk and play chess in the light coming from a nearby temple  . Now chess is my  THE most favorite game and I am crazy about it , so naturally I stopped to take a look ... an exciting endgame was going on ... and I kept watching ... When the game was over , they invited me to play and I was very happy to have been given a chance ... it was so nice of them . I rarely get playing partners , so I am out of practice for quite some time now , so I lost the first game very quickly and stupidly , but then I went on to win the second game . I left after that , with an invitation to come and play again.
My brother , his wife and mom and dad have come to stay , so chatted with them after dinner , had a very nice time chatting with my girlfriend , over the phone . Now I am off to sleep .... overall the day was normal , the night good so far .... that is not bad if an average is taken .. anyways .. wont keep you up anymore . Good Night .

Due to disturbance in signal , your favorite cartoon will not be hosted today .... ha ha ... just kidding , feeling very sleepy so just quickly put something together .... now I am off to sleep ..my day today was good , hope the night is as well .... Good Night :)

Today is valentine's day . Yesterday night ended on a sad note for me and as a result a major part of my morning was ruined ... fortunately , some work came up and I was able to bury myself in it .
I feel bad that I am not able to give HER company today and she was sad as well ... I sent her gifts but those too did not reach on time .

I also felt lonely today .... this feeling of loneliness is increasing and this is having an impact ....I desperately need to change things in my life .... it is getting rather dreary .

Oh well , spring is almost here and as we all know ... spring is the season of life and I , am hopeful .

The day was as usual , GATE exam was so so .... that is , not too good , not too bad , I have no hopes of cracking it though .
Everything was going fine until night and then boom .... something happened and my depression is back again ... it is as if my happy life is a picture drawn on canvas which covers the picture of depression .
This is getting rather tiresome , these frequent bouts of depression , this constant switching between moods .... these are taking their toll .... I have become easily irritable , angry , and there is a restless feeling .. a feeling of dissatisfaction .... if this goes on , then very soon I am going to explode and that is not going to be something pleasant.. I do not know of any preventive measures but I hope I find it .
Tonight is going to be almost sleepless again I think .... if it is so , it will be very bad as I have stupid office tomorrow ... I am fed up of living like this ....
Desperately wanting a change ..!!

Tomorrow I am going to sit for the GATE exam which is the doorway to M.Tech degree etc. and the situation is totally ridiculous . I do not know anything as I have not prepared . How could I ... tell me .... how could I , with spending 12 hours at office every day , coming back and cooking , washing etc ... and this life for 2 years ... 2 years of detachment from formal academic education makes it really hard to concentrate in studies like I used to do 2 years ago . This is the first time in my life I am going for an exam totally unprepared , just blindly pursuing the exam .... I feel ashamed and guilty .

Today was uneventful , spent the day at home .. at night , we had an invitation to a marriage celebration at a nearby neighbor's .. so went there for dinner .. the food was very good .

My girlfriend is very talented in ways that I like very much ... I am starting to understand that she is very creative deep down , but that creativity is covered by years of disuse .. I plan to bring them out again , I plan to help her pursue what she dreams ... instead of rotting in the stupid job that we are doing now . She showed me a piece of clay pottery that she was working on .. and it was so so beautiful .

It seems that adding cartoons to the blog was really a good idea ... now my blog literally has endless hues ..... and better still I am finding very less problem to draw the cartoons using paint .. I do not know about anyone else but my girlfriend loves them very much :)

Saturday night .... ohhhhhhhh yeah ............. but nooooooooooooooooooo not the usual long night of enjoyment ... got to study a bit today , so , signing off for now .... Good Night .
Today

Today was just another usual day but that also meant that it was a reason to be happy , because yesterday was worse .... and moreover today was happier than the average day because
TODAY is FRIDAY !!
and the main reason is , today I had an absolutely wonderful time , talking to my girlfriend .... one of the few people with whom I can be myself without any second thoughts . The night is going nice so far and I have full confidence that it will continue to be so ..... though nothing new has happened so to speak of ..... the color and smile have returned in my life .

Haunted by the demon of depression (for which there are lots of reasons to draw its strength from) my morning was the worst morning I had in the last six months and it left me such a wreck that my entire day was gray but then things started looking up as I had a very very lovely gift from my very very very lovely sweetheart and so some of the color returned .

Just another usual day at office and back at home .... the only new thing is that this is the first cartoon I have drawn ever in my life and my blog ... so this is supposed to be me .... Hello Me , ha ha , not very well versed with MS Paint so I guess it is a bit .... well .... more than a bit I guess .. off kilter but I am sure to improve .

By the way I am feeling very guilty .... but I will not be able to disclose the reason before 13th Feb.

Busy day today .... because , today is Saraswati puja . I love it that the puja happens in our house every year . Got involved in doing all the religious ceremonies and rituals as a result I opted out for office today .
Went out with my brother to have pizza in the evening .
Nothing eventful happened after coming home up-to now that I am writing this entry ..... and I hope nothing will , because , I am going to sleep .
Have a plan to make irish coffee at home , but problem is , I do not know where to get good original irish whiskey ... well we'll see .
Over all ...... it was a bright day but there have been brighter days .

What to say .. what to say .. what to say ?? well , nothing I guess .... wait wait .. let me think again .... yup I'm sure I really do not have anything to say ... bye then , hope you had a better day .

Went to the book-fair yesterday . Bought :

1. The Golden Notebook by Doris Lessing
2. My Autobiography by Charles Chaplin
3. A Kaleidoscope

My friend maddy was also there , we carried our cameras along , and did some photography as well . Went to ChinaTown to have food . China town is an area in Kolkata where there is a large chnese population . Had food in a hotel called Beijing ...... will be posting shortly .

Today was uneventful .. relaxed at home , went out inthe evening with mom and sis to buy idol for saraswati puja that is there day after tomorrow.

Monday tomorrow...and again hateful office ... only one good thing , the weeks are just flying !!

Will tell tomorrow.

Seems like my rainbow was premature .... the clouds are back again .... and though I love the rain , it sometimes gives me the blues when it becomes incessant ..... Oh well , today is Friday night , and what is more , it is still young , two more cups of coffee , a pen and a diary and it wont hurt getting wet ..... without an umbrella :)

P.S. there was mild earthquake at around 7pm today ... I was in office at that time , the alarm was sounded , and the office building was evacuated . ..... Hmmmm I wonder how I missed mentioning it out before .. :)

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY .... Am I happy or what .. :) :) !! of course it is the night that I am happy about ... unless something happy happens during the day :) :)

The weeks , it seems , are just flying . The book fair is ending next Saturday , so I am planning to go one last time for this year . I am back to writing and reviewing full fledged , so much so that my mind is occupied most of the time .

Today was a usual day .... the only thing notable were
1. I wrote my second short story titled : The replacement nurse.
2. The dinner today .

Spoke with some old friends , over the phone , on my way back from office .

Life , it seems , is going good for now ....

Cntrl C + Cntrl V of a day :( :(

Office went just as usual .. had an invitation in the evening , to the 25th marriage anniversary celebration of one of my friend's parents . It was a nice break from the routine life , with old friends reuniting on this occasion and then friendly chatting and teasing , just like old time .... I hate that I am grown up now , but then again , I also love it , There are always two sides to a coin and you can never confidently predict the outcome of a toss .

Today was just another day .... at least till evening it was, then something happened which made the day very special . I was talking to my girlfriend and we were revisiting some old memories back to the time when we were just friends , or even less , good aquaintances maybe . She asked me what shirt I was wearing , I told her and to my joy and surprise she recalled me wearing that shirt on an outing trip we went during that time , from office . She recalled the shirt in such detail that she even mentioned a little red bull that was sewn on the collar ....I felt very very happy , it became a special day for me.

Did some shopping at the book fair yesterday . Didi not buy Schopenhauer as I thought I would , instead I bought Camus and Sartre , I also bought Paulo Cohelo's The Alchemist and two other Bengali books .

There were lot of people at the book fair yesterday , we (my sister and some of her friends were also there) stayed till closing time , so many were there making amateur videos of their friends waling hand in hand and singing, having food , browsing through books etc.

On they way back , we had to fight to get a taxi as the crowd was really big and a lot of people wanted to get a taxi .

We stopped for dinner at a restaurant near home , it was on my suggestion though (an erroneous one as it turned out :) ) . They messed up our orders twice and we ended up eating some things we didn't order , good thing is , they then brought us the actual things and did not charge money for the extra ones .

Came home , switched on the laptop and did some reviewing of some of my friends' writings , then I planned to do some writing of my own but then fell asleep . I slept all through then night with my writing diary open and my head resting on a corner of the laptop keyboard ....and woke up with a headache .... GOOD MORNING.

The weeks seem to end so fast , it feels as if only yesterday it was the previous week end . Maybe because this Wednesday was a holiday . Anyways , so it is Friday night again . Got some new concepts for painting and writing so I am mentally occupied , that is a good thing , another good news for me is that I am slowly breaking out of my writers block .... so look out world , here I come ..!!

OOPS....!!!! almost forgot to make today's blog entry . This day ... sorry ... evening is going perfect hinting towards a perfect night so I do not want to miss a single moment of this ..... so , keeping updates for tomorrow and signing off for today .

The Kolkata Book Fair had started yesterday , this is my most favorite event in the entire year . Today was a holiday so I went to the book fair and spent a long time there . I just love the feeling of being surrounded by books , it gets me in the mood of writing and in my current situation of writer's block , I really could use a break .

Had a much required talk with my cousin today , who is one of my closest friends as well .

Will be going to the fair again this weekend , I did not buy any books today , but next day I will .

Asked mom to make something special for dinner , so she prepared chilly fish .... turns out .... the chilly had a real punch packed in it , moments after tasting the gravy we were groping for water , or something sweet .... but the gravy was really tasty .

Have office again tomorrow so ..... the cycle goes on .